To The Six

Throughout my years of writing all my love, my hurt and my fear There are just six, and six for six years Who constantly seem to reappear. Six years I have written, line after line To six different boys that I knew, or know. And after them all, I know that I'm fine And I loved different ways, but now I let go So to the first, the youth of my pain My first unrequited love At the age of fifteen, thought I'd never love again But I wasnt in love, and now I know. And you were a best friend once upon a time, But you were young and so was I And no longer do I know you, but I still see you And so with that I say goodbye And now to the second, the one that was thrice The one to whom I let myself be known You tricked and you fooled but whose laughing now For now I'm the one who has grown And I didnt love you, and yet you still hurt me Your confusion cut me to the core But I thank you for teaching how a lover shouldnt be And I thank that eventually I stopped wanting more And I move now from the constraints in time And address in turn by my heart So to number three, who was never mine Im glad we're still friends, Im glad we still smile With you I just admired from afar And I flirted shamelessly in your prescence But its ok that we never went anywhere For I still get to talk to you today And now I shall turn to number four My best friend and pedastool I intend to keep you at arms length For I shall not be made a fool And whilst I know part of us could work A greater part of me knows the fantasy is enough For you're my best friend, and thats how it must be There shall never in be an us in reality And so to the fifth, and the one I did love The one to whom I wished to always be true You gave me the gift of knowing how to love And knowing how to be loved by you And so I am grateful even though I've said goodbye And I wish you well in a life without me I can not know you again, I can not be a friend I'm sorry but please dont ask it of me Now I turn to the sixth, who has been there since the start The one that Ive known for the entire six years And before our timing was always off the mark But now theres a chance for us if we let go off our fears If I forget that Ive been hurt before If you forget that you have been too We never hurted each other, and I dont intend to start now Your a best friend, a lover and I wish you were mine I know that you warned me I would end up hurt But please please just think of how good we've become When Im with you I dont want to leave And I know you feel that too So please, lets be happy together Please let us be the way I know that we can Because I love you already, falling in love shant be hard And I want you more. Than the five before. I dont want there to be others. Ive had my share. I want to run to you, and know that you're there.