Throughout my years of writing
all my love, my hurt and my fear
There are just six, and six for six years
Who constantly seem to reappear.

Six years I have written, line after line
To six different boys that I knew, or know.
And after them all, I know that I'm fine
And I loved different ways, but now I let go

So to the first, the youth of my pain
My first unrequited love
At the age of fifteen, thought I'd never love again
But I wasnt in love, and now I know.

And you were a best friend once upon a time,
But you were young and so was I
And no longer do I know you, but I still see you
And so with that I say goodbye

And now to the second, the one that was thrice
The one to whom I let myself be known
You tricked and you fooled but whose laughing now
For now I'm the one who has grown

And I didnt love you, and yet you still hurt me
Your confusion cut me to the core
But I thank you for teaching how a lover shouldnt be
And I thank that eventually I stopped wanting more

And I move now from the constraints in time
And address in turn by my heart
So to number three, who was never mine
Im glad we're still friends, Im glad we still smile

With you I just admired from afar
And I flirted shamelessly in your prescence
But its ok that we never went anywhere
For I still get to talk to you today

And now I shall turn to number four
My best friend and pedastool
I intend to keep you at arms length
For I shall not be made a fool

And whilst I know part of us could work
A greater part of me knows the fantasy is enough
For you're my best friend, and thats how it must be
There shall never in be an us in reality

And so to the fifth, and the one I did love
The one to whom I wished to always be true
You gave me the gift of knowing how to love
And knowing how to be loved by you

And so I am grateful even though I've said goodbye
And I wish you well in a life without me
I can not know you again, I can not be a friend
I'm sorry but please dont ask it of me

Now I turn to the sixth, who has been there since the start
The one that Ive known for the entire six years
And before our timing was always off the mark
But now theres a chance for us if we let go off our fears

If I forget that Ive been hurt before
If you forget that you have been too
We never hurted each other, and I dont intend to start now
Your a best friend, a lover and I wish you were mine

I know that you warned me I would end up hurt
But please please just think of how good we've become
When Im with you I dont want to leave
And I know you feel that too

So please, lets be happy together
Please let us be the way I know that we can
Because I love you already, falling in love shant be hard
And I want you more. Than the five before.

I dont want there to be others. Ive had my share.
I want to run to you, and know that you're there.