I shiver as you kiss her, but I can't turn away.  I'm the
one that did the ending, so I guess this is pay.
  I watch as you hold her and the feeling doesn't settle
right.  But nothing would change if I put up a fight.
  I stare as you fall for her and God knows it hurts like
hell.  I try hard not to make it obvious, I would die if you
could tell.
  I do not want you back, it's rather difficult to explain. 
I don't believe it's jealousy, I can only describe it as
very deep pain.
  I was the one who used to make you smile and drift deep
into thought.  And maybe it's wrong, but I have to admit,
it's something I miss alot.
  What's really confusing is that I've found someone new,
and I am now deeply in love.  But my memories of us will
forever be stored in my thoughts up above.
  I remember when it ended things felt really good, and our
friendship for awhile stayed tight.  To this I was surprised
because the way I left you for him I know, it wasn't right.
    But as I feared my pay back arrived and as predicted, it
eventually cost me a friend.  So it's important to me that I
express to you how truly sorry I am again!