I’m so sorry dad
I broke my promise time and again
I still haven forgotten him
My heart still yearns for him

I know it’s wrong
And I am at fault
Why can’t I let go of those memories?
Do I not love you more than a mere mortal?

I have failed you
And I still love Him
Yes I really really do
My dreams come alive with him

It was never meant to be
And I have to forget
It’s all because of our differences
And my desire is to love you over him

Why haven’t I let go?
I have tried many times
Every time I hear a love song
Memories floods back, and I weep

The truth cannot be denied
I still pine for him return
I cannot lie to you, or to myself
My heart refuses to listen

People say its crap
But my hearts tell me otherwise
I cannot comprehend why my love for him cannot surpass that
I have for you
Why do I have a weakness for him?

There is an urgent need to forget
So my heart lies only with you
Yet I can’t seem to
The terror of telling you I rather love you

It’s all so real
And I want to love you so
Yet I hesitate due to fear
Its paralyses me so


This is not a song of love
But one crying out for help
What I dare not pray out loud
To forget and move on