You Love Me But You Dont Know Who I Am

You say u love me often but heres what i dont see,
how could anyone love a girl whos as broken as me,
You may not see my faults u may only see my grace,
I havent had time to show you the pain behind 
my face,
Many see my beauty but all i see is scars,
they dont understand the pain inside the hole cut in my 
heart,
In the morning when i wake up i look in the bathroom
mirrior, 
i tell my self im beautiful and drop my daily tears,
Why is it so hard to tell myself to love the outershell,
When everyone around me tells me they see it quite well,
The ones who say they love me im afraid that they dont
care,
They dont understand my pain inside the feeling that no one
knows im there,
i lived a lie among the people that lurked in the shadows of
my life,
they told me things like i love you Lace before i went to 
sleep at night,
My father and my mother would tuck me into bed and happy 
thoughts of a happy family raced in and out my head,
Ever since she gave up and we saw the man and the mask,
my life just seemed a big blurr i felt i could never 
last,
When i thought that i should give up Missy told me "Girl
hold your head up high,
and in that moment i took a prayer and looked up at the 
clear blues skys,
They took me from my sister and my brother met a girl i had
no friends i felt alone and more so on my own,
Then god sent an angel and he took the pain away,
But my friends convinced me he was not mine and then my life
felt so lame,
Then i realized that he liked me and my heart lit up the 
world, 
i had a smile on my broken face and felt pretty as a pearl,
he made me feel so beautiful he recognized my love,
most of all he was gentle i never felt pushed or shoved,
He tells me that he loves me but i cant tell him my true 
self, 
im afraid to show him who i am without asking him for 
help, 
i swear im on the brim of hope im on a cliff of fate, 
im goin crazy in my horrid live im running out of faith,
i want to show him that i love him i want to show him who i
am, 
but how can i tell someone about me when i think that he
wont even want to be my friend,
if i lose the one im loving ill have no one but myself,
i feel so alone in side my heart i need him to help me out,
but if hes willing to let me go i have to let him be, 
i cant make someone love me who hates the person they
see.........
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a mear example of lonliness of loving someone who you think
will never care......
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Copyright Lace'Slates