Suffocated... 
Smothered...
Asphyxiated...
Scared...
Terrified...
Last night was a living nightmare

Last night,
I left you
I teared my heart apart
I abandoned my soul
I killed my joy
I lost my love
I'm a criminal in the name of love

I don't know if we are soul mates
But I know that you own my heart

You're my first true love
You're my smile
You're my laughter
You're my life
You're the air I breathe
You own me body and soul

Last night,
Words can't describe how lonely that night was
You begged me,
"Don't turn your back on me!"

I had no choice
I was living a dream
A dream that was so surreal
And now it's time to wake up

I knew this was going to happen
I left you before it's too late
You know that we're not meant to be

"I love you, and I can't love anyone but you",
You begged
"Don't leave me now, I can't live without you"

While my hands are shaking
While my heart is racing
I say,
"I have no choice, I have to do this."

He starts to cry
My heart sinks in its place
I tell him,
"You know that I love you. And I don't know how I'm going to
move on. But this is our destiny."

Our final destination
Our broken road
Our dead end
I wish I would die

As I hear him cry
I wished that I could hug him
I wished that I could hold his hands

His tears,
They make me suffer
How I wished I would be next to him
How I wished that we would be together forever

My eyes were red
Filled with sadness
Filled with unspoken words
But still, 
I didn't cry
My tears were locked up

Eventually,
He gives up on me
He leaves
And he takes my heart with him

After all,
I couldn't cry 
I was in denial
I didn't believe what was going on

I go to bed
Trying to sleep
The whole night 
I keep turning around in my bed
His memory lives in me
His love is haunting me

I never imagined that someday
Someone will love me the way he did
His love was a fairy tale
His love was bigger than life
His love was a dream come true

In the morning,
I woke up with an unbearable feeling
I wanted to skip this life
I kept myself away from my friends
I hated life

I woke up from my misery
I started reading his love notes
I cried
I finally cried

How I miss him
How I miss his voice
How I miss hearing the words 'I love you' coming out of his
lips
How I miss being with him
How I miss hearing him calling my name
How I miss being his girl

Tears rush out of eyes
Falling upon my cheeks
With a wish of hearing his voice
Saying my name

His love notes are mesmerizing
Writing his feelings for me
Meant everything to me
I read them while I cry
While I suffer with my tears
Is someone going to love me the same way he did?

Every time I get a call on my phone
Every time I get a text message
My heart races
Hoping it would be him
And how happy I would be if it was him

Now,
That'll stop
No phone calls from him
No messages
He's gone forever

I love him with all of my heart
But we were never meant to be together

I love him
And he loves me
But this is the end of our love story
A bitter, sad ending



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