The Shadow the Candle Caused

How would I begin to explain the state I am in. Is it lost or full knowing. Am I just walking blindly or do I know fully what I am doing. I want to say I do but I want to say a lot and they are never backed up by the I do...... I can not feel any of the emotions I once shown. I want them back give them to me without a fight. Of course a fight something I am not willing to do. I feel so gray where do I turn left it looks just as good as right but is that so wrong. I just don't know anymore. Can you help me? This discontent sickens me. It's all just going through the motions, shadows mocking the one acting. Come back...turn around don't look me over I am just this shadow standing here do you not see me. I have just become a face...a face among the many, you tell me no different from the next. I am lonely in a crowd of people. And so I sit I light this candle till you come back around I must fight the heavy winds from blowing this out so you can see me again. This candle is all I have of you, it's not much but enough for where I am now. Guide me back I am ready.