Same Things Over and Over Again.

Why am I constantly dragged into this mess Is it my craving for anything to believe in The poisin that I take in The tangle that builds in my throat each time I breathe I think it's what I live for My eyes turned up toward the hills My soul turned off my the weight of my dreams My pride drained out of my body My dreams lays on the floor smiling at me The skies turn black I don't know whats happening My body turns cold I need an escape Shaking from the insecurity I have in everything I don't know anyone could live this way I see your smile and it makes me sick You fake ugly fraud, get away from me Why do you take so much pleasure in hurting others They wanted to help you, they just didn't know how Now you live in a black world Neglecting your feelings Disregarding everything around you You never knew what it was like to be loved