Cyclones

For some reason there's still a cyclone in my mind. I fight the words but the storm just won't abate. Incessant rain upon the window of my thoughts and once again I feel myself crumble. I refuse to fall apart because of you. I refuse to be the pin cushion you want me to be. I can't take it, all the years, all the memories, everything we went through for you to say those words. It breaks my heart as I see I'm all alone. They all left me one. by. one. But you were different, our friendship was enduring and I never thought I'd sit here writing you out of my life. I'm not twisting this with all my fancy words because it's quite simple, painfully clear, so easy to understand. You don't need me anymore but I've always needed you. I may be more flawed than most but I've been there for you, dried your tears. For four years I have listened and I was listening when you promised me you'd always be my friend. I guess I can't blame you, I don't like me either but at least you could have said it to my face. Goodbye my friend, now just a bitter shadow, I hope that for some reason there's still a cyclone in your mind.