*back at the start

Every thing was fine... I moved past the hardest part stupid me, I turned around and wound up... back at the start only this time I stand more weary and more wore can I make it again this time? feeling so sick and sore? I told you everything in "past tence" of corse though it was a good thing now I feel such remorse If you just wern't so wonderful ALL I've ever dreamed this wouldnt be such a nightmare I could wake up and be freed part of me tried to signal I was getting way too lost "this isnt real girlfriend" now I'm paying the cost. I fell asleep singing a song of happier days lovey blue summer skies with a warm summer haze then all at once I woke up bound again in my heart opened my eyes and found myself once again back at the start...