A journey

17:09- It’s beautiful outside. I mean it’s cold and a bit windy but… it’s pretty. The clouds don’t look gray; they look rather light purple, making the houses look dark yellow instead of white. The clouds are not covering the sky completely, so there is still a bit of blue and white up there. I bet everything would look ten times prettier if I get on the roof. But… should I? 17:52- after finishing studying for my tests I decided to go up on the roof after all. I just got back. The view from my window shows that it’s getting dark outside. The clouds are not purple, they are dark blue now. I can’t even see the view anymore! Just the reflection of my room. It’s different up there, on the roof. It always was. But today was special… unique. I didn’t feel like I was choking from the heat in my room. I felt chilly, and loosened up… I walked up the newly decorated stairs carefully. Afraid of falling while stepping each and every step. As I finally reached the opened doorway to the roof of our house… and simply walked through it… I was a different person. A cold breeze touched my burning face, and broke through the empty spaces in my clothes. Kidnapping the heat and warmth out of my body. I walked around the edges. Observing the village houses and streets, watching the people pass by, like a guardian angel. Then I stepped a few steps until I was standing in the center on the top of my home. I took a deep breath, and then closed my eyes. I was drowning in the air around me. And that icy breeze ran through my nose into my lungs. Making me feel something… unusual… different… unique… I opened my eyes and looked up… the clouds were light purple as they were from my window earlier. With white puffy spots that looked like pillows. I love the clouds. And their weird shapes, that can enchant you in their own way. Like they did to me minutes ago. I felt nothing. I could not hear my brother and sister fighting downstairs, for the sound of prayer echoed in my ear. I could not smell, for the air that was surrounding me did not allow it. I could not talk, for my mouth was sealed. I could not think, for there was not anything to think about. I could not remember, for my heart had distracted my mind. Forcing it to let go of its problems and doubts. “No tests, no judgment… no more” my heart said. And finally… I could not see, for I was lost in the bright sky colors above me. I walked down the stairs carefully again, and got back to my room. To where I am now. Everything is black behind my glass window now. Showing nothing but darkness, through out the rest of the night.