Slipping Away

Time is going in reverse. You know it hurts but don't know all it's worth.It hurts really be=ad but you you can't even cry.She doesn't tell you why so all you can do is sigh. Now it hurts so bad you want to die. They ask you and wonder why.But all that comes out of your mouth is lie after lie. You tell them you're fine,and that you can keep everything in your life in a straight,perfect line. But you're actually bending,about to break.You don't know how much more of this you can take. With all the decisions you are forced to make,this is the last one before life runs out. You scream and cut to let everything out, but it's been going on for too long. They tell me i'm fine and thay things will eventually change.But tghey don't know what's going through my mind.They don't know what i'm through. or how bad things have got.They don't know how good I am at keeping things under my fake smile. They keep wanting to live,I'm deperate enough to want to die. So i'll slit my wrist as I close my eyes. The blades cut open my skin as I think about the people I hate and despise. The blood gushes out as I try to find at least a little truth hidden deeply in all the lies. But none of that matters because I've already commited suicide.