qustions of a 16 old with an unusal life

were did i go wrong? how did my life get to this point? were i cannot cope with it its my life and it runs me how did i let this darkness take over me deeply? how cud i not see what was stright in front? how cud i not see here pain? how can she not see mine? is life really this hard? becuz if it is . . im out! we all have qustions we wud like answered but do we rally or wud that make it worst? qusion lead to big answers that life can not apply