I laid eyes on the boy on the other side of class,
His watchful gaze would cut like glass,
We would talk for hours on end,
All the while my heart would pend,
'do i love him?'
I decied i did.

I saw him one night coming out of his farm,
He had a girl hung on his arm,
He kissed her gently, 
i could feel their heat,
It made my heart miss a heartbroken beat,
I could see that he loved her,
I could see she loved him,
But to me it still felt like an inhuman sin.

Two week later i saw them again,
Lost in eachother as they walked through the glen,
I watched them closly praying for a sign,
A sign that would show that he would someday be mine,
That sign never came so i took myself home,
Locking the doors and un hooking the phone,
I took off my belt and hung it up and the beam,
I put it round my neck and with one muffled scream,
I fell to the ground no longer breathing,
No longer feeling my broken heart heaving.

Now i watch them from way up high,
I look down and see them and with one mournful sigh,
I drift off on my cloud and try to decide,
Was the best answer SUICIDE?