Suicidal Thoughts

I lay in my bed, I just stay up to think. Why should I go on living? This world doesn't need me. Noone thinks a thing of me apparently, but I can't seem to end it. It's windy outside, I hear the rain constantly pounding on my window. In shorts and a tee, I walk to the ledge. I sit on the canyon, staring deep into the black below. Imagining the unforgiving rocks at the bottom, I shiver and shake. I slowly lean forward, and I'm just a second from falling, when he flashes through my head. He's worked with me so much, I can't just end it now. I sit back some, watching the other side of the canyon, a couple of my friends play flashlight tag. He keeps going through my head, everything he's ever said to me repeats itself. "Everyone loves you, don't be afraid, life is tough but we can get through it together" I walk back to my house, not being able to tell the tears on my cheeks from the rain pelting me like mini reminders of the pan I could have put him through. I don't know what I'll do in High School, this is hard enough. He won't be with me then, I sure hope I'll stay alive through the next five years.....