On The Inside

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By bedazzled

I'm a butterfly unsure it will be beautiful. I'd rather stay in my cocoon with the memory of a tangerine sting; acidic colours burnt in my mind, on my skin. I'm lace around the edges of a puddle of mud. I sit; a dirty doll in a playhouse and I don't release myself from the cold metal chains that bind me like possessive kisses against my wrists. Escape is not my dream I suppose. My hands are cold, my nerves are numb, I am in a paralysis of thought and I think I could learn someday to stop hating myself with these barbed-wire doubts, these knife insecurities. What I know is that I love you more than anything, than everything despite the clutter in this limited space; haphazard dust, haphazard lies which press my hands around my throat. It is not escape, it is freedom. It is my right. To live, to love without opposal or nuclear bombs but in the present that isn't so. Shadows nest amongst my arteries and I bleed on the inside now.

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