why am i so scared?
who do i really care about?
is it just me, or is it him?
things go on in my head,
unexplainable things,
without remedy,
and my heart only aches
to think of my life
in such disgrateful ruins,
will i be alive for that moment,
or will i just fade into thin air,
either way, i cant stop pretending,
im not who i would like to be,
each morning im someone else,
the only force around me is my soul,
i lose it and die.
making my head hurt so much,
i shed tears of blood,
and my only shadow,
is the one i look in horror,
for im not myself
nor will i ever be.
my lifes going through alot
and still
im frightened 
of the darkness around me.