another rambling

By Cute One •
tonight is a night i am distant, distant from life, distant from god, distant from everything, the way i feel is not a good feeling.
i never say i need to leave my place, i never need to usually.
i need to leave my hometown and go somewhere new.
i need a new lease on life and start things fresh.
i have disobeyed god, and for that well there are no words, its disobeying a parent.
to me disobeying god is worse than disobeying your parents.
although i slip and fall flat on my face, i know that, i need to come out and confess my sins.
to my god and to myself.
i am truly his child, soo why do i get myself into earthly temptations.
never again will i touch anything that is tempting.... never again will i be sooo stupid.
i hate that i did this...
i feel sooo awful.