Why do people change,
why do my thoughts consistently change?
Never got my mind made up on anything,
Sometimes its hard to wear a grin.
I guess thats my way of coping-pretending things are good,
When i no you dont treat me the way you should.
I dont want to repeat this cycle over and over again,
But im not sure if i should end it and when.
will you ever be the person i first loved?
And will these feeling i just shove.
Put a smile on and stay in this broken relationship?
I wish reality i would just grip.
I have fought for everything in my life,
but are you worth this strife?
I have grown so much because of you,
And all we have been through.
The good times and the bad,
The thought of breaking up makes me sad.
I just hope you listen to me when i say,
i dont want to feel this way.
I need you to respect and love me,
put your childish immature pride aside and just be..
Be the person you once were,
not this wish washy blurr.
i sometimes she the man i love,
But i need more than that i need to be happy not tired
of...fighting for this by myself,
and putting the blame onto oneself.
how can i accept all the balme wen all i do is for you,
even wen u disrespect me i do for u wat u ask me to do.
im just so confused i dont want to spend my life
pretending,
just continuous mending.
of a relationship that seems to be faulty,
its kinda sweet and salty.
i think there is someone who would see me as perfect unlike
you,
But still i insist on battling through.
what is wrong me y do i stay,
i just want to be strong not be this way.
i am giving you one last chance,
and if you do not change i wont even give you another
glance.
even after four years together i will walk away,
without any delay.
ill just cut you off and stop the hurting and pain,
thinking of all i could gain.
love sometimes isnt strong enough to conquer all.
And this i have started to realise and i will stand tall.
such a common misconception love doesnt automatically make
things easy,
in fact it makes it harder and life isnt breezy.
when you love someone you are so vunerable and open wide,
no where to run no where to hide.
i guess i will just explain my thoughts to you,
and see wat u do.
the ball is in your court,
Please dont fall short...
or this will be ending,
no more mending.
im sorry but it has to be this way,
im being strong and i will not stay.