It's times like these in our lives,
That we feel like reaching for a knife.
A knife so sharp drawn in and out,
To end the pain that makes me shout.
To be shot in the back,
By a friendship you did lack.
Hatred is overflowing,
I just don't want anyone knowing.
I hate this life and the pain it brings,
Bad moments, bad thoughts and other things.
Sometimes I fell no love,
Not even from the God above.
It's like he likes to see the hurt in me,
It's like he finds pleasure in setting it free.
Dissolving my soul and finally my heart,
By making my thoughts be torn apart.
I wish I was dead,
A skeleton held I sea by lead.
What's to live for anyway?
I really just don't wanna stay.
I just want to go,
To a place where rivers don't flow.
By the fires and laughter’s of evil,
In a sense he's like a weevil.
Affecting the whole fuckin world,
In the end it's going to get hurled.
But I don't mind spending my life down there,
Better than this life unfair!
Never put your trust in friends,
There not there until the end.
They don't tell you how they feel,
Instead they just kneel.
To the God I did trust,
But in this friendship this was a must.
Pretending what they wanted to see,
Instead of truly just being me.
But fuck all them know,
There’s no way I’ll fucking bow.
Their the ones I tried to please,
By showing them what they wanted to see.
Fuck those friends that make you cold,
Make you think there so bold.
When really there not who they are,
Not this big bright shining star.
Make you feel bad when you’re unhappy,
Their not friends there just making their God happy.
Fuck my life and all who's in it,
For all I care they can go suck my shit!
I don’t want no part anymore,
They'll find me dead on the floor.
In this new world of my own,
At least I won’t be alone.
One day they'll just see the pain,
When I’m lying dead in the rain.
But it just seems way too late,
The end of my life is at a high rate.
Im not dire when it will end,
I just want my happy end.
Kill me know, kill me quick,
Make my scar so deep and so thick.
Let everyone see,
The pain inside of me.
Please God just let it out,
Place my heart up on a mount.
Just let the whole world see,
I'll be happy when im free!