Secrets of mine, secrets so deep,
They somehow want to creep.
Out of my heart locked and chained,
They leave me there to remain.
So barren, so cold,
So worthlessly they unfold.
Leaving my life with no meaning,
And no reason for dreaming.
Through all this I ponder,
I watch my life wander.
Is this life actually mine?
Twisted and tangled like fishing line.
My thoughts are contaminated,
By those my heart has always hated.
My life I am hating,
To be me again I am waiting.
Moved in any direction,
No sympathy nor affection.
Do I get to have a say?
Or will it always be that way.
Will I ever see hope,
Cause im not sure if I can cope.
Maybe I’ll just float away,
Nothing to stay here for anyway.
My life is being ruled,
Or am I just being fooled?
If only I could die,
I wouldn't have to cry.
Things would be so much easier,
But that just makes my stomach queasier.
No direction, no spirit at all,
Maybe one day I will fall.
Into the darkest deepest pit.
Then I could just quit.
Life all together not my fault,
It's not like I done the bolt.
It's just that secret wanting to get out,
It just makes me wanna shout.
Let me be,
I just wanna be free!!
Hope- one day I will find,
So clearly as if to blind.
Until then I’ll just wait,
Waiting for more of Satan’s bait.
Can I find the keys to my heart?
Or will I always be torn apart.
Wishing there was another way,
Hope my feelings will have to stay.
Stay deep down inside of me,
Please God, just let them be free.
Grant them bail, from this long, hard, torturous trail.