Watch me go round and round in my head,
Just like with every thought of you I toss in my bed.
How can you say goodbye to someone you can’t imagine
living without?
Leaves me wondering will this pain ever end- I have my
doubts.

How can you not be in love with someone when you don’t
know love without them?
How can you live life as a family, when your family is
broken?
Especially we’re together a nice word can’t be spoken.

Why do you speak so much but have nothing to say,
Why does my heart long for you all day.
Love makes you so vulnerable and I don’t want to be that
way,
Makes you do and trust stupid things cause your heart does
obey.
I long for your kiss, your touch, your presence, your love,
Are the things I miss I want more than anything and I wish
those feeling I could shuv.

I don’t want to want you,
I get mad with everything you do.
You’re so selfish and so vain,
But what in the end are possessions they will only bring u
pain.
You’ll spend your life trying to make yourself feel like
ur worth something,
You will not even last to finally fly with your own wings.

Until you realise life isn’t about what people see,
You will never be who you should be.
Which is sad although kind of make my soul glad,
Cause the very thought of u makes me mad.

Now u have your trophy girlfriend to try and make you feel
complete,
She can’t even come close to compete.
No one will ever love you the way I do,
Your far too selfish with the things you put people
through.
You dragged me along through four years of false hope,
And you nearly had me I was about to start not to cope.

What would you have done if I was to end my life while with
you?
What public image could you uphold then what would you do.
It’s easy for you to see the bad stuff in me,
And tell me I’m not good enough- I’m not who u want me
to be.

The truth is you want something new hanging off your arm,
Which you achieved in three weeks- but I have gotta stay
calm.
I do not need to talk about her ever again,
And you’re full of bullshit you two were never friends.

I dont no why you tell me things to make me mad,
But i wont let you make me overwhelmingly sad.
You’ll be the one who realises one day what he has lost
and feel like a failure,
Lost at sea without the knowledge of a sailor.
A few month of fun was sacrificed for me and you.
How can any one live with you and what you do.
How can you, you should be ashamed.
I hate feeling so full of outraged. 

I don’t even know who you are anymore,
My respect for you has hit the floor.
But I will move on and I will find the one,
Someone that will accept our son.
You will always be apart of my life,
But u better not bring anymore strife.

I will not allow u to treat me like shit,
You should feel like that- hey, if the shoe fits.
Watch me move on and watch me grow,
Watch me find love again and watch me glow.

I don’t know if you’ll ever find love again,
Perhaps first u should find some true friends.
Or at least become one,
At least feel like it’s something you’ve accomplished-
something you’ve done.

But your part of my soul, how can I let you go?
You’re all that I know.
I wish I could change you but your so out of reach,
But it seems lessons in love I cannot teach.
To love sincerely so it consumes you its so strong,
And not want to do wrong.

Feels like I’m so undecided I almost need to escape from
reality just for me to see,
That we are not meant to be.
I’m struggling with the reality that you’re not my
reality,
I will move on and instead of us unified I will be me.

I whirled up in this vortex of emotion- and I just want to
see clearly,
But the memories keep me captive and I cannot move freely.
Writing through the haze the watery eyes,
My heart flows open as I begin to cry.
I wake up each night thinking of you even though I don’t
want to,
Your apart of my every motion- fucking everything I do!

Obviously involuntarily cause things have ended badly,
Which I say sadly.
I never want to be in this place again it feels as if im
dying,
So lonely and sick of crying.
I tried to escape with alcohol- forget what you mean to me,
But I know it doesn’t help although it does make me see.
Kind of clarifies the hated thoughts of you
But forget it I will not let you crush me again with the
things that you do.

I will learn and grow, 
Live life fast paced not slow.
I will be stronger once my heart heals,
I wish it torturous pain I couldn’t feel.
I will be the best I have ever been,
And I don’t care if it isn’t seen. 
I’m doing this for me,
To be the person you have kept me from being- the one you
cant see.

I will be independent and strong,
And all you’ll have is the things you’ve done wrong.
I long to look in the mirror and truly see,
A me without you who is happy and free.