I'll take it
He whispers something to the waitress
she giggles
I know what they're thinking
Three months, Three months and 10 days,
Three months and 10 days I've been out of rehab,
I'm returning to school after three months in almost
complete solitude,
I am Michelle Anderson and I'm 15 and I have been in rehab,
for what?
Anorexia nervosa
It means I am or was anorexic,
Like I didn't eat,
It was because every where I go, I never fit in,
Never, I never look good,
like those girls on TV,
they can eat and eat and never gain a single motherfucking
pound,
why can't I be like that?
Because you're a fugly slut
whispered a voice in the back of my head,
the same voice that told me I better stop eating or else I'd
be the next contestant on biggest loser.
The same voice that told me I was no good and only caused
pain for my family,
the same voice that told me to start taking drugs,
I hate that voice,
hated it so much,
I wish they understood me.
I wish you did. |