confusion

he said wait, i say i will' yet i am scared to. they said leave him i say i will, .maybe yet i know i don't really want to, he says i love you, they say he plays you i say i know yet - i don't he says, i have my plans are for us they say there is no us i say, nothing he says You are the one for me I say i know they he say he has many I try, He try less I love He love less I talk he talks less I give, He gives less. I shout He stays calm I accuse He stays calm i run he holds me I push him He holds me I say Go! He stays He trust me I doubt him I feel, the hurt of him been away, He is numb to everything I captured by love He is free, free to laugh to work I think mostly on him he thinks mostly of himself I want more He want it as it is I want to go I want to stay He as changed I have mature we are different yet we are still thinking we are together are we? Is it love I am feeling? SO confusing? some what abusing? I wish i knew where he goes when he go? I wish i knew if He loves me or just using me? I wish knew if I am wasting my time? If he is really Mine? Am I fooling myself? Should i start dating someone else? Should i listen to what they say? Or should I let love lead the way?