afraid to sleep

I have dreams that he is here and oh how these dreams feel good but when i wake up i feel lonely i am afraid to sleep I have so much on my mind on the computer wasting time i shut down at 1 am again I am afraid to sleep I am cold and this bed is big wish he was here to hold me i just xant without him cant sleep that is panic attacks i am afraid to sleep He would know what to do when a nightmare fears me but he is gone and now I am afraid to sleep afraid to sleep my dreams come true praying i dont dream he is dead afraid to sleep then i think im insomnic, cant sleep i try but sleep as left me too so im up day and nigth afraid sleep and wish i was not awake cause im lonely