Thinking

Ill sit here
Looking out to the water
Staring at nothing for hours
Thinking about the past two months
How did I let things get this far
How did I not see it earlier
But then again who do I beleive
Someone ive been sisters with for years
Or someone who owns my heart
He said he never used me
But I cant beleive him
After he told me he used his x's
But i cant beleive my friend either
He wouldnt do that to me
Thinking about how we used to be
If he used me why did he cry when I moved
If he used me why did he say I Love You more than i did
If he used me why didnt he wanna loose me
But then again...
All he wanted was to be alone
All he wanted was someone I wasnt
He made me change into someone im not
Which I hated but I thought I couldnt do better
But boy was I wronge
I wish he would try and do better
But he proved to me he wont change
I just stand up and smile
And walk away stronger than ever

BY LIL REDD