The storm

I feel like im on a battleship, Tossed and turned without you friendship. I feel sometimes alone at sea, Without you there's only me. I feel so lost, so barren, so cold, Our friendship was so bold. Now it seems like its come to an end, A path with no road and no bend. I just want the old road back, We'll have to figure out what we did lack. I thought you'd always be there, To help me cope and bare. Seems to me others were better, Their problems and your together. It's like I was fighting on my own, Our friendship in no way had grown. Like I was left to sit here and steer, But it felt like my end was near. I need you in all I do, You somehow get me through. Now your there and sometimes your not, And when im in trouble your not in your spot. I search and I search and you I can’t find, I'm having so many arguments in my mind. Where is she? I need her! I thought best friends we were. Then I scream and shout, What were we all about? Was I just your shield for a while? Someone just to make you smile? Was I just an insignificant friend? Some moments in life with you I did lend. Was I just a fling? Not meaning anything? I'm not saying it's all your fault, You probably didn't mean to do the bolt. I just thought we were in it together, Even when giant storms were predicted in weather. It's dark, quiet and I’m alone, Sometimes I just wish you'd phone. When im there contemplating life, Sitting there with a sharp knife. Then I’d know that you are there, I could maybe see you’d care. I no there's something that I lack, Please can we get our friendship back!