I Refuse

I remember as a little kid Growing up with no parents Doing the things I did Getting into so much trouble No one even knows How much it took a toll On my soul To not have anyone around Or be found But sometimes life That's just the way it goes I'm not dwelling I'm just going with the flow And maybe who knows This life can turn around Cause I'm not bound To limitations of sounds Of screams telling me To come back around I grew up in a bad part of town But it made me stronger Prouder and can stay longer In any fight Cause I can be on my own I'm used to being alone I'll always keep my head up high No matter how much trouble resides Deep inside Cause no matter what The only person I can trust Resides in me And I know that eternally I'm tired of being used And abused So I'm taking care of me For once I'm taking a chance With myself Taking risks Only I can lose But this I choose Just like everything else in life I refuse I won't accuse Everything that happens Happens for a reason And if I fail Then I fail At least I choose The way I wanna live or die