What Can I Do

What can I do but sit here and wait Wait for the days to pass And for the nights to disappear What can I do but sit here and wonder What would it be like without you Where would I go and what would I do How could I cope and would there be hope I don't know the answers to so many questions Is there life beyond your love Is there happiness or is there darkness Was it meant to be or are we kidding ourselves Maybe we moved just a bit too fast I don't think I'd be happy if you left But I know I'd learn this time To take my time and have some fun Before I try to settle myself down I wasn't ready to be this way I want to still be sixteen I want to party with my friends I want birthday parties and cake You've given me those things And I've always wanted to marry you But somewhere deep inside I yearn I need to be free, to be myself Your love is all I ever wanted And I don't know if I can take it anymore I love you more than words can say More than I could ever show you But I feel that even while I'm rushing you I'm rushing myself too I want to go to school I want to be something important I want to be special I want my parents to care more Most of all I want to be sixteen Life was fun and carefree The things that worried me most Was if I'd live to see this day And now that I have you It's not that I don't want you It's that I wasn't ready for this love I never thought love could be so deep And it tears me up inside Because even though I want to marry you I know I'm not ready And even though I want my babies I know I'm not ready And I wasn't ready to be loved so much. I've never had what we share I never felt true love And when it was the man I wanted It felt so much better I would die for you At the snap of any finger Just say the word And I'll cut my throat for you I'd work a million years Making no money Just to show you the love I have I thought I was right When I wanted to move out with you But since we've lived together I feel less of a part of your life You always want to sleep And when you wake You only have to sleep again I cherish every kiss I get Because I never know if it will be the last Shame on me for ever doubting your love I want to be with you forever I want to grow old with you But when does forever begin? You were right in telling me That I am much too young I was just to stubborn to see What was too good for me You gave me more than I ever deserved I was never good to you Always hitting and kicking Biting and yelling at you I'm so very sorry I sometimes wonder if I'm better off alone If maybe god had dealt me a shitty deck of fate For how is it that I love you so much That the only way I know I'll make you happy Is to not be there at all I hate god for what hes done to me The men he put in my way The bruises and memories he left me He did one right thing when he gave me you But he never even prepared me for what you have I want to settle down with you But my body wants to travel My heart wishes to stay with you But my feet are on the run I'd be wrong to leave you Becasue that isn't what I want I just want things to be the way they were Sometimes I feel as though I saw you more When I lived with my parents You weren't sleeping all the time I can't sit around all day and wait It kills me to watch you sleep I don't want to go out with my friends I want to go out and be with you And even though I know its not Why does it feel like your job is more important I don't want to lose you Not to anything Even my stubborn self I want to be with you I want you to wake up And see me for who I am I only try to change myself To try and make you interested again I want you to look at me the way you used to When you'd pick me up from home And kiss me so softly Why did moving out together Change all that we had I love this life with you And I want to share the memories But sometimes I just wish I could live the single life Without worrying if you still love me Without feeling like I'm leaving you behind Everytime I hang out with a friend I'm still so very young Theres so much that I can do I'm not saying you're holding me back But I wish you'd help me along I need your help so badly My faith in myself is running low There are so many days I'd feel better off dead I love you with all my soul And everything I have is yours Especially my heart I'm not saying goodbye But why does it hurt so much When we say hello Please wake up For me Please just once Wake up And be with me Not at home Not at someone elses house Not at a store or food place Just me and you Alone Please wake up For me