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remember yesterday? all the fun we had nothing was wrong, i wasnt sad i was laughing and having a great time talking and sharing jokes, definitly not a crime today there was something different in the atmosphere all that laughing and joking disappeared i was my old self again no matter what i couldnt win but today was different i guess you could say i dont know how, has it always been this way? i wa sin more pain as the minutes ticked by as i looked in the mirror i wanted to die have i always had these dark circles underneath my eyes like a stormy day, the dark clouds in the sky when was the last time i truthfully slept? probably before the pain when no secrets were kept i used to sleep graceful no tossing and turning, no screams so painful now its either no sleep or nightmares is there really someone out there who cares? maybe i dont care and im lying to myself and i can tell somebody and get some help but oh well i guess its fine and im depressed and if i keep worrying it will build up my stress