the road to my awakening has been a little rough,
the hurt and pain has really been far too much.
But as i take a step back i realize,
It's hard to wipe the tears from my own eyes.
My tear ducts swell and the tears come out,
Its been hard before making me wanna shout.
But i realize as i begin to see a little straighter,
That life is about now not later.
I am who i am because of my past,
I am who i am even though this pain lasts.
I can accept that life has its ups and its downs,
It's times for smiles and it's times for frowns.
The experiences we have make define us who we are,
And you should never push your experiences away to far.
They r meant to keep you grounded and aware,
So that you don't just sit n stare.
They tech you how to cope with the bullshit of life,
And it doesn't matter the strife.
I have never seen as clearly as i do now,
and it gives me a little power.
I feel strong and i feel i can overcome,
I think the future will be brighter because of whats been
done. 
I don't think my life will ever be boring and bland,
I think everything i can overcome and take a stand. 
I am a mature, strong, independent woman,
I can say that honestly and i no i dont need a man.
I want love but i dont need it to survive,
I'm just living my life happy to be alive.
I want to wait for the one who is my soul mate,
No timing could ever be too late.
No distance isn't worth traveling to reach the man of my
dreams,
And no task it to hard it would seem.
But until then ill be string in knowing,
I deserve being happy and our love is growing.
The man  of my dreams makes my smile even when i'm sad,
Puts up with me when i am mad.
Is my shoulder to cry on when i get weak,
Is my voice when i cannot speak.
It's so much more than a silly bit of lust,
It's about understanding and trust.
I will be the one who does all this for me when destiny
makes it time,
Till then i know he is mine.
Mistakes i have made but i'm sure this is you,
how can it not be- i am so in love with you.
You match me perfect and say all the right things,
You make my entire soul sing.
You're that voice of focus and direction in my life,
And there's nothing more id want than to be your wife.
Scary i know-never thought id want that again,
But things change- life has to many twists, so many bends.
I think you're the one my heart has been longing for,
I think i knew it the second i saw.
You sat there all cute and shy,
I stared and you didn't ask why.
I said you where cute and unlike anybody id ever met,
And i still mean that you constantly surprise me and yet-
I am so drawn to you,
You amaze me with all that you do.
Like a silly little romantic movie i feel we play,
But i could do this all day.
You make me this person Ive wanted to be for so long,
And the feelings i have for you are so strong.
I love you, I want you- you're my hearts one desire.