The time is ticking,
my heart is beating,
so much more than the anxiety, 
i love you my sweet baby.
sry it doesn't rhyme
just like my heart beat
skipping one after another, 
hoping time would go faster with it.
as big as this hope,
reality is off my limit. 
despite this pain oh so rigid, 
still what can i do,
other than to selfishly hope that you would be feeling the
same.
I'm sorry. 

"Should i send this" i'm thinking. 
what if i don't, 
u'll never know.
do u need to?
no u don't.
so no i won't. 
may you be happy, 
with the convenience of ur mind.
along this flow, i'll swim hard.
what if i can't,
then i'll drown with no regret. 
cos i love you. 

Against all those reasons, 
why did i send this?
again like i said, 
I am selfish. 

The unconditional love, 
"to be loved in return",
is it part of the unconditioned?
for someone so selfish,
oh no it's not!
Love me.