dear dashawn cook

when we first met i didnt like you at all.i didnt even know your name i just knew what you were called.i said yes to being your girlfreind and i put you in the mix,of all my little secrets in life and all the bullshit.its some things you know and its some im gonna tell you now.i never really opened up to you and i feel i have to let it out.baby i love yyou with all my heart more than anything in the world.and i am really proud to say i am your one and only girl.to everyone life isnt always fare and god is sometimes never there.when you cry alone and you scream for help.but help never comes and now you are all by yourself.i know tis was a year go but im bringing it up again because it affected my life because i could not defend.you know all i wanted was my mothers love but she never so much as gave me a hug.she hits me and trys put me down in any way that he can.and i know im not strong enough to defend.you say that i changed your life but what did i do for you.i dont think since weve been together ive helped your life to improve.im sorry but i know its affecting you in a negative way.thats is why baby all im trying to say is,you changed my life and i depend on you an need you by my side.my love for you is unconditional thats something ill never deny.when im with you i know im safe because your the only one who takes way my pain.the tears i cry and the hatred towards the world it all just goes away.and when you look into my eyes i know that safe.you say you only loved one other as much as you love me and i think its not fare to you that we have to be.your headed for success and im headed for a fucked up life.im going down the wrong path and your going down the right.you dont know how it feels to be an item to a man and they rape you and treat you like a one night stand.100 bucks is all you get like your some type of hoe and i cant call in rape because that man i didnt even know.you dont wat its like to walk in my shoes and see wat i see.you try to understand but you will never understand me.no matter how many times i run away from home and come o you so i can pretend my life doesnt exist.when im found ill still have to face this.i needed to open up and tell you how i felt because if i ask for nothing else i ask for your help. love always, da 4bidden mz_cook