Big Giant Contradiction

As I look out the path No wrath I see these steps Leaving me out of breath Like I cheated death This life is my contest My own stress No one's going to put me to rest I'm obsessed with living But I'm depressed from giving Time to protest, reset To live life again, a request Time to take a stroll Give life to this old soul Make me whole Take me out of this hole Cause I'm about to lose control I'm looking for a new direction No broken walls and halls and friction Sometimes I feel like a big giant contradiction No prediction, just my affliction What ever happened to conviction Take one step and a leap of faith Who knows you might rotate Reverse to a previous date Leading you straight Maybe it's fate Maybe I just have to wait Let my mind debate Take me to a happy state The shadows loom Overcasting doom Imagining burying me in my own tomb Writing this rhyme in my own room Don't assume, better yet presume You know how to make me resume I am my own doom