Suicide

I clutch the knife in my hand.It won't hurt just to run it across my wrist.Don't penetrate just touch.Didn't mean to.I smelt it first-the blood-then felt the perfect pain shoot up my arm.The letter was meant to have been thrown away,but now you know how I feel,how I felt,and how I much loved the person you took away from me,to keep me "safe".You only cause pain no matter where you go somebody wants to get down on their knees and beg you to stop.I won't cry at your feet though.I won't be the whimp you want me to be.You can be that person not me.Now that I'm dead I'll be able to see my father agian.I already see him behind my sister's blue painfilled eyes every time we talk about him and hope he's in a good place with the gods and goddesses watching over him. The blood flows fast down the length of my wrist.I only hope that Sarah won't come to the funeral as I pick up the gun six bullets in case ones a dud.I pull the trigger CLICK!Nothing.I pull again CLICK!Agian CLICK!Let's try again CLICK!Again CLICK!One last bullet BANG!!I would have payed to see the look on you face when you walked in and seen all the blood on your orange walls,as you read the letter,but for the grand finale I would have wanted to see the tears flow down your face as you relize what you have done.I would have looked down on you with my father by my side and we would smile at each other,cause now we know that you are in as much pain as you caused us I hope you know how it feels now! By Your Everlasting ------------------------------------------------------------ To my aunt the one who killed my father.It took al lot of time for me to except your apology,but I never meant that I was okay with you killing your brother and my father.I would have still had a dad today if it wasn't for you.I don't care if it was self defence.I would have rather had my father than my grandmother besides he would have lived longer than her.I should have been able to say good-bye to my father,but you took that away from me.THANKS A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ------------------------------------------------------------