So confused

Don't know where i'm going Don't know i'f i'll stop Don't know whats going on In this life that is mine All around me seems chaotic All around me seems mad All around me is heaven And yet all around me is hell I love my friends And yet i love you more But you will never know How much you mean to me Love of my life The sweetest guy Summed up in one word; "beautiful" Don't know where i'm going Don't know if i'll stop But i do know that i love you Though you will never love me My love will burn And my life will churn And turn.