Something beautiful

I wish I could turn my hideous mind into something amazing. I wish I could stop cutiing.I wish I could stop crying.I wish that I could change all of these deathly thoughts.All that I think about all day is another way that I could kill myself.Sometimes I scare myself with how much knowledge I know and whast I could do with that knowledge. I have brick walls in my room and did you know that it takes five pounds to fracture your skuul and get to your brain,so if you hit it hard enough you can kill yourself that way.Bullet in the brainpan.Squish!Two slits down each wrist.A slit across the troat.Rope wound to tight around the neck.Hand on you neck,push down hard. Those are just some of the things that run through my mind everyday.It scares me sometimes the only person I have ever told is my brother the one I will love no matter what.He might not be a whole brother,but he acts like it.He's the only real family I have. I wish I could change this horrible mind into something beautiful! By Your Everlasting