i see you always 
on the other side of the wall
where no one should be
to start with
you are the first thing people ignore
but i think im the only one who gets it
when i try to get in your head
you always back away
it's like you enjoy this agony and shame
you want to be out there in the world
but you're so used to nothing
that it's gotten so far away
so far it's fading
why do you want to be such an outcast
such a nobody
you think it's gonna get better
if you just stay alone
but how do you know
you haven't tried