Heart Attack [7.8.09.]

He makes me sad And he makes me cry. He makes my heart and All the rest Of my insides die. He ignores me like the plague. HE brings these thoughts back into my head. Making it hard to breathe and think strait. Getting sick to my stomach Cause of the words left unsaid. Just let me go Please, I don't want to hurt no more. My wrists are bleeding, your love I'm needing Every heart beat I feel is sore. I just can't believe I went and did, this stupid shit again Over a perfect god damn boy. Repeating suicidal images in my head. God just kill me or leave me And get it over with!! Cause if I Can't stay with him Then with out him, I wont live. Tears falling down my face again This depression really couldn't get any worse. No drug or drink takes this pain away. Turn around, take the best of me with him. Has my heart stopped...or did it just burst? *Ch* I'm such a disgraceful mess. Yet barely, he still bothers with me. Continuously left in the cold. Every feeling inside I hold. He's far too good for me. I don't know when I'll see To him I'm just a girl. But in Just a boy, I've made my world... He didn't miss me at all!!! But this is the last time he pushes me to this edge Cause I'm finally gonna take my fall.