My final fall

will someone please tell me, what i truly mean i am nothing, and stand no more, it does really seem. I am just a thing, that is here to this day i am a waste of space in every single way. No one truly cares of how i feel under my disguise I sit with ease and dwell for my sadness to subside. with the grip of death on my side God is here to be my guide. To guide me to a place better than my life because i can no longer live in this aweful strife. I am put no where, not understood right I can't stay any longer, i have lost my big fight. my fight with myself to stay strong in my heart but i finally couldnt win, i just fell apart. There is no reason for me to stay here This life is the only thing that i really fear. To all my loved ones, i am sorry im such a disgrace I couldnt even look at me, or look into my face. I am a shame to all, and bring discourage to everyone but i think that my life has finally come undone. I hope to see you someday, if i can make it through because moving on is just something i have to do. I will see you again, and you will finally see me smile o how long its been, i havent been happy in awhile I'm sorry that i let you down, and being selfish to you all but i cant pick myself back up after my final fall to be destined this way, i must have to take this is the path for me, I'm sorry for my mistake.