Did you ever really care?

You were my first guy I loved

Do you know that? I loved you when I told myself not to. 

I paced back and forth waiting on you to come back, but you
will never be able to sweep me off my feet again, take that
breath from me because I won't allow myself. 

Just to love you I had to fight to have the upper hand. I
would have done  a lot for you but I realized your not my
knight in shinning armor. 

Go back to your big kingdom. 
I don't need to be rescued.

 I turn and go and start my own without you just like you
wanted, but now here you come back to me on knees begging to
be with me once again like I have always wanted. 

But your to late for me now. 

My heart bled and the wounds mend that you caused and I
won't be hurt again. There is never a clean break but you
didn't even give me the chance for a bad one you just left
me. 

No word but your last words,

 "I love you babe and I can't wait to see you."

God did I wait to see you again,
but that never happened. 

I learned to breath with out and now I am stronger. 

I realize that boys like you aren't worth it. I have so much
more and will find more.

I can breath , I can run, I can smile, I can find new
chances, 
I can find love. 

You were in my future but you removed yourself from it.

You said you were sorry with that face of a angel, but this
is not this isn't Hollywood I won't run to your arms. 

So go and leave me now because I don't need you to make me
complete me. 

I will find someone who will actually treat me well. 

It's to late for you to catch me now.