Always Me [7.19.09]

Here comes another one Deep inside this black hole I call a heart. I've written hundreds of these And yet still, I don't know where I should start. Well, he loved me... That I do know now. But I had to go and hurt him With all of my stupid doubts. I lost it all. And it's all my fault. CHORUS: How could I push him away? I had the most perfect boy in my life And I pushed him till he had enough. I blamed him for my pain But I did not see Every time it went wrong It's always me. Here come the tears again Falling from my eyes, like a heavy rain. I felt it so many times before I'm getting used to being in this pain. I lost him and I miss him But I don't deserve to call him mine. He knows I can't let him go Why can't I ever keep someone in my life?!? He's my all But I made him fall. *Chorus* He filled my heart and my mind. I wish I could Turn back the time. Make him happy again Look into his eyes And see his smile shine.