Letting go

I watch the red lines magically apear, my life has become my fear. I'm no longer happy and care free, i can never be the girl i use to be. Tears flow over where my smile once lay, and i am letting go without a say. My pain is to much for me to bare, I am not sorry for letting go because their is noone to care. So i write a letter to let you know, that it's not my choice to let go. I want to find a reason to stay, but i am leaving without a say. I know this sin is to great to be forgivin, but their's no reason for me to keep livin. I'd rather be damned into the depths of hell, then to stay here and dwel. So i go on taking pill after pill, i guess words really can kill. You told me i was worthless and that i needed to go die, I have no more tearsleft to cry. I feel my body going numb and my heart slow, I take my last breath it's time to let go. So i let the darkness consume me, If only i was the girl i use to be. Maybe then i would've been okay, but i'll never wake up to see another day.