*letting go

I learned of your engagement last night ...just before I went to bed so all night long I agonized over what I never said I shall take it to my grave my feelings, you will never know they say if you really love someone you have to let them go this sounds so trite right now and the sting too much to bear I wish I could make it stop I wish I didn't care we were supposed to be together It's so obvious to me now everything could have been perfect I just screwed it up somehow I picked him over you and it cost me all I've got regret's my closest companion thru this lesson severly taught I must surrender you, my darling and these feelings, forever more turn my back on all the longing and on all hope, close the door I really want you to be happy It just hurts right now you see I'm sure she will make a lovely wife I just wanted it to be me.