Website

i found a website today and it made my heart hurt and it made me want to look away. today i found the page i made to tribute you. today i found the poems you wrote the poems i wrote the lvoe we shared today i found the time when everything was perfect and this was when you cared. signed off with an i love you all the cherished moments and inside jokes too. it's like a photo albumn of pictures we don't have a scrapbook of the love a quarrel with the times oh my, how it made my mind spin. i sat there and read everything i wrote everything i said i sat there and thought how can this be true? i could i want you so bad when these feelings weren't happening to you? it seems so innocent it seems so, not what it is it seems like a letter between the best of friends when it was something i did to show you how i feel.. why is it now we can't make ammends? and i guess it is for the bets to ignore the things i think about and to try and hide it and say you're a whore. a whore for what? for breaking my heart when really i should have known from the start that it was wrong to think nothing would ever tear us apart. love is the breaker that slowed down this wave stopped it from shoring but its the only emotion that my having signs of i never gave. i guess i was niave and i was jealous too i guess in reality it was dumb to want you. but now i think about what we had and for our friendship even if it's over i have to be glad. the tread marks are fresh and still tender in my heart the bandages keep falling off they won't hold tight and i guess that this is something not worth the fight in the end i guess i'll never be right, becuase whatever it was that i had for you you didn't share it, and there is nothing i can do. so still may i lie awake at night thinking of you ... just let me cry i'll get over it im sure that i can it's unfortunate that you are my best friend of yet. and now, gone gone with the wind blown away by something so small hardly a matter to concern ourselves with at all. i guess you may never read this and i guess then i've wasted my breath, but i just had to write one last thing even though i know it isnt the last becuase these are all crap a test never passed. so until i can say what it is i want in one short go please stay patient i just want somethings for you to know. xoxo Kyelle