I am a strong women,
yet I'm so weak.
I have a voice,
though some times 
I can speak.
I have control,
yet I feel lost.
I had it all once'
then I paid the cost.
I am struggling now,
I cant regain muself.
I am reaching out,
theres noone there
to help.
I am drowning inside,
my head is slipping below
the water.
I am .........?