Written November 4, 2007

HAS THERE EVER BEEN one boy that you were in love with, but he never loved you the same way and no matter what you did he still didn't love you like that ? and after a long time you finally moved on but not because you are totally over him but because you knew you had to. and you say you don't like him anymore but you know you would give the world to have him. and if he ever came back to you and loved you, you would run into his arms and never let go. and just knowing that he likes you as a friend is good enough, because you love him that much. and no matter what he does to you, you can never hate him. and you still get that queasy feeling in your stomach every time you see him, or even when you just talk to him online. and you would do anything for him to just talk to you, because you love hearing his voice. and you know you could never ever love anyone as much as you love him, but you have to pretend you're over him so you can just get on with your life. and you finally stopped trying because you know he will never love you back, but you still can't stop thinking about him. and you just hold onto all those memories you have with him, just in case you never have any more. and you hold on to every word he says and every gorgeous smile he smiles and every laugh he laughs because you know you'll never meet anyone like him. and every time you listen to a song you heard when you were with him, he's all you can think about for the rest of the week. but you know you can never have him, and you just weren't meant to be, no matter how much it hurts ..