This is my goodbye to you,
Even although it’s too late,
But it has taken me all these years,
To come up with words I don’t hate,
I don’t think anyone knew,
That I really did love you,
Because when you died,
No one seemed to notice,
Just how many tears I cried,
I remember all the times,
You stayed with me and my dad,
You were like the big brother,
I never had,
I would come and sit on your bed,
And you told me all the things, 
Racing through your head,
Remember when I cried because I got a row?
You would come and comfort me,
I wish you still did that now,
You told me not to worry,
About the problems with my mum and my dad,
You said that people didn’t deliberately,
Try to make me sad,
You always gave me little bits of advice,
You said I’d need them later in life,
Well, I do,
But I wish so much they came straight from you,
I know that everyone eventually drifts apart,
And we did,
But you were always in my heart,
I wish I had more memories of you,
But I really treasure the you I knew,
I didn’t ever know, 
The man you became,
I will never know,
What caused you such pain,
I will never know,
What you thought on your last day,
But I hope at some point,
You thought of me in some way,
I have thought of you every day since then,
I come to your grave again and again,
I sit there and talk as if you can hear,
And just like when I sat on your bed,
You take away my fear,
I guess that goodbye is just too hard to say,
The word means you really have gone away,
So I’ll just say good night,
And I hope big cousin, 
You really do sleep tight,
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox