the beauty of my soul

4/17/05 <font face=tahoma color=purple size=2>April 17 2005<br> her life flashing before her eyes as she's blinded by her lies how she tried to escape reality by becoming society's definition of normality they accepter her with open arms and bought into all her charms unaware of the pain she hide inside for she looked but happy on the outside if you knew me like you said you did you would know that i am still a kid the little voice inside praying for me hoping that i have a tomorrow to see the little girl within my soul reaching for my hand as she tries to pull me up to stand she begins to weep for she knows she is too weak just like that day when she was unable to speak how her mouth would open with no sound now silenced for eternity, she is forever bound locked inside my chamber walls she does but only listen to my unheard calls she watches me as i fall and hit the floor becoming but more peices than that of before she hears what i do...and like me...can say no more saying nothing as he called me his whore lying there afterward...in my lonely sorrow waiting for death to claim me for the morrow my body shivering every moment i lie there and remember how the tears flow from my eyes as i mourn for her crying for the death of the girl you once knew keeping the memory of her death alive for you i await the day she comes back to our world for you to seek the answers she never knew why you had to deprive her of her dignity when you placed your hand upon me why you tried again every day even after i pushed you away why you continued even though i was no longer whole was it because of the beauty of my soul? -forever yours- Lilly