4/17/05
April 17 2005
her life flashing before her eyes
as she's blinded by her lies
how she tried to escape reality
by becoming society's definition of normality
they accepter her with open arms
and bought into all her charms
unaware of the pain she hide inside
for she looked but happy on the outside

if you knew me like you said you did
you would know that i am still a kid
the little voice inside praying for me
hoping that i have a tomorrow to see
the little girl within my soul reaching for my hand
as she tries to pull me up to stand
she begins to weep for she knows she is too weak
just like that day when she was unable to speak

how her mouth would open with no sound
now silenced for eternity, she is forever bound
locked inside my chamber walls
she does but only listen to my unheard calls
she watches me as i fall and hit the floor
becoming but more peices than that of before

she hears what i do...and like me...can say no more
saying nothing as he called me his whore
lying there afterward...in my lonely sorrow
waiting for death to claim me for the morrow
my body shivering every moment i lie there and remember
how the tears flow from my eyes as i mourn for her
crying for the death of the girl you once knew
keeping the memory of her death alive for you

i await the day she comes back to our world for you
to seek the answers she never knew
why you had to deprive her of her dignity
when you placed your hand upon me
why you tried again every day
even after i pushed you away
why you continued even though i was no longer whole
was it because of the beauty of my soul?

-forever yours-
       Lilly