the idea of me
By h. •
i can't let it happen again
i can already see it coming
and i know that i'm unready
you should try to be happy
he says
i should make others happy
i said
do you want a girlfriend
or do you want me
do you disregard honesty
to convince me
because you like me
or the idea of me
if you care
you'll wait
and then i'll share
my thoughts come less
and less
with every step with
every break
with every drop of blood
i need some time
to clear my mind
and know that
it's really you i want