Kiss of Death

I run and hide scream and cry yet i'm all alone so why should i try i beg to be released fromthis hell called earth there's nothing here for me i can't even give birth i'd give anything for the kiss of death so i jump in the ocean and wait for the last breath my throat is burning my lungs are screaming i want this to be over it's too bad i'm not dreaming this is the end of my life i can feel no more i hear nothing and my heart isn't sore my death is done my pain has vanished i've finally got peace but why do i feel banished?